Sunday, November 29, 2015

Counting the days....

I am not counting the days to Christmas. I am not counting the days to Athens...
Counting the days to my students exams. This time I can feel it...
Due to my current job, I could not take up new students. But I wanted to be fair to the people I had already taught these previous years and not let them go in their final year (or in my case, months).
Don't get me wrong. I love my job, both at the office and teaching, but...
Working 13 hours a day non stop for almost a year is really affecting me negatively lately.
It seems that all I do is wake up at 6.30am, cook, clean, go to work at 9, teach afterwards and go home late at night. Whenever I find the chance to actually sit on a couch, I fall asleep.
And although I have been able to support my family, I have no time for myself, no time for my kid. I just work. I try to be efficient at my work. I know that I am doing my best to be efficient. And it works.
But is that life?
I do believe I am a workaholic. I would never live without working. I would probably get crazy. But there comes a time when you just need the time off. A day when you say I have nothing to do. I can sit on the couch all day watching TV or go out for a run with my kid or have lunch in a tavern with my family or go our for a beer with a friend and not think about what I have to do in the afternoon.
I know it was my choice - or maybe it was not a choice, it was a necessity if you consider my family's situation.
But I get jealous.
I get jealous when I see people going out for coffee in the afternoon.
I get jealous when I seen couples going out for walks holding hands.
I get jealous when I see kids with their parents on bikes being happy.
I get jealous when I hear friends making travel plans.
I get jealous when I hear that somebody had a great time partying last night.

My only entertainment lately is one hour a week doing power yoga ( coming from a person who practically lived at the gym a couple of yeas ago)
And creating choreographies for my spinning while I am walking to my lessons, listening to music. I don't know if I will ever use these choreographies or songs. The dream of working as an instructor is a distant one at the moment. I just find joy in this. It is a bit dangerous though, since I am not paying any attention crossing the street (yesterday I almost got hit by a car!!!)
I am not complaining. I have just reached my limits.
I am lucky to have a steady job. I am lucky to be recognized for my work.
I have to work on the quality of my life though.
Create moments for my kid.
Devote time to my inner balance.
Follow the dreams I once had and got forgotten.
I don't really need a New Year's Resolution list this year. Only one decision is enough:


Sunday, November 1, 2015

Social media and me...

I was about 11-12 years old when I started communicating with people around the world. There was this TV show showing the lives of kids around the world and you could send them your name and address and they connected you with another kid from another corner of the world! My first pen pal was Marnie from the States. I continued writing letters and exchanging pictures, postcards and little presents with people from literally everywhere.
When I was 15-16, I discovered cable TV - I watched Nino Firetto reading letters from fans asking for songs, showing pictures (I was actually one of the first people from Greece to ask to send a letter to this British channel and ask for a song) and I wanted to have a place where I could put up pictures and thoughts were everybody could see. Communication was (and still is) a very important part of my life from a very young age. I mean I was ready for Facebook, Instagram, Blogger before they were even invented yet! I think that if I had the technical knowledge, I could have invented them somehow (and be rich LOL!!)
So I found Blogger and started writing, sharing thoughts, work...
And Facebook and Instagram and Twitter and Tumblr and lots more social media...
And I have started posting... without stopping...
I have made new friends with the same interests, I shared my thoughts, my lessons, my work, my pictures, my life... Everything I ever wanted since the age of 12, I had found it.

Social media have helped me a lot with my work, since a lot of people can see what I do. Meeting the right people sometimes can take you far. If you have the qualifications as well, of course.

But I am not only my work...

Some people choose to use social media for work only and this is good - as a current employee I do help as well promoting the business I am in, but... am I only this?

Yes I do have a great time at work and sometimes I do want to show this with a picture!
And as a freelance teacher I do want to show my students' work!
And yes as a mother I do want to share my kid's achievements, not to show off, but to express my happiness.

But still, I am not only this.
I have multiple interests...
The gym is second home for me.
Spinning could be a profession if I had set my mind to it earlier. (still thinking about it though)
Music and spin - choreographies are my passion.
Healthy nutrition and exercise is something very important to me!
I love coffee.
I love reading fairy tales - I have a huge collection at home!
And crime stories - huge collection over there as well.
I love Athens - I try to discover new corners of this city every time I am around!
I love spending time with friends and taking pictures of the wonderful moments!
I love taking pictures in general. Bad pictures and great pictures! (I don't really care if I look good in them or not!)
I do all this plus 8 hours at the office, 3-4 hours lessons, training, household and motherhood, everyday...
And yes, I'd like to share this.

Some people think I post too much on Facebook and other social media.
And maybe this is too much for them. Because they do not actually want to know me. They have this stereotype image of a person and they think I have to be like that. Because everybody else IS like that. And even if they are bothered with the coffee-pics or the gym-pics I post, they do not press the unfolllow or the unfriend button, they are just there to criticize.

I am really sad that I had to close my wall.
Still here posting lots of thoughts and the pictures you will find on Instagram!
Take care!